Saturday, October 30, 2010

Here We Go Again

I keep trying to get away from him, but things keep happening... His dad's hospitalization, my grandmother's deterioration, and now my mom failed to pay my tuition so I'm dropped from classes. I have nothing to do really without his XBox during the week. Maybe work out and try to find a third job. But still. Not a lot going on if I take him out...

Monday, October 18, 2010

Amazing that we got this far.

What do I want from life?

I want to truly live, not just survive day to day. I want to travel to Spain, Italy, Ireland, England, Russia, Afghanistan, Egypt, Amsterdam, Congo, Bolivia, Peru, India, Australia, to name a few. I want to help build schools and women's health clinics. I want to try to help stop poachers. I want to live in a foreign country with my lover, painting and drawing. I want a bohemian life. I want to find true love.

What do I want to be?

I want to be free. I want to be confident. I want to be sexy. I want to be happy. I want to be caring, gracious, likable. I want to be an artist. I want to be a good mother, someday.

I want this life either way. It would be made amazing by him being in it, but made no worse by him not being there.